Just .... ARGHHH !!!

Just so fucking frustrated right now! Can't just wait to get outta here !!!

And getting even more pissed off since my laptop is just being a BITCH !!! This fucking pile of shit just keeps shutting down on itself. I have my hand in wrong point, too close to laptop's own mouse and this shit just turns off. Did it THIRD TIME in a matter of MINUTES !!
Why??! What do I do wrong to deserve those shitty laptops? WHY my laptop just can't last like ten years without a problem??
      The main problem is yet and again my mommy dearest.... She just expects that I lick the whole fucking apartment clean as she's making a soup. YEAH RIGHT !! She gets furious when ever I act even a tad like I'd expect her doing everything around here but on the same time she expects me to do everything while she's cooking. And keeps barking orders all the time. Yeah, right BITCH. Just so NOT gonna miss these days while living out on my own. And CAN'T WAIT to get my own apartment !! This fucking circus is just driving me crazy !!
       THANK GOD I'm graduating ! Wish to get my degree as fast as just possible. Though I learned a week ago that I have to send a paper to Finnish social- and healthcare area's surveillance and permission agency, Valvira, to get a permission to write the title "practical nurse" to my name tag. A thing my tutor-teatcher was supposed to tell while at school but no. Heard of it from a friend.
       Next Friday, which is 22nd March, is my last day of job training and last day of my studies as a practical nurse. The next week I go to school to drop off a couple of papers and to ask about the paper I need to send to Valvira. After that I start searching for a job. If nothing special comes up, I go to work to Kustaankartano, the elderly home where I worked last summer. And as I finally get my diploma I figure things out and FINALLY start looking for my own apartment. My wish is to live on my own by Christmas. 

But now I will search the web for a place to take my laptop for maintenance. 

Whoa !! :DD

 I am so active and I just write sssoooo regurarly in here... ;) xD

Anyway, it's been about ten months since I last wrote anything... Don't feel like going through everything that's happened. 
We did move, but I didn't move out on my own, not yet. Just can't afford it. Spent amazing nine weeks working at Kustaankartano, Finland's second largest elderly home last summer. I also did something I've been dreaming about for years, I bought myself an iPhone. Saved some money from working the summer and bought myself a Christmas present worth 599€.

Now I'm finishing my studies, going to graduate as a practical nurse this spring. I'm at my final jobtraining now, it'll end 22nd March, just in a couple of weeks. I'll be ready to search for a job, though my diploma comes via mail during April. I already did apply for a job, time for applying ended 25th Feb, over a week ago and I haven't yet heard a word from there... 
I'm going to move out (FINALLY!!!) of here, as soon as I just get a job. Well, not if my first job is as a substitute for a couple of months, but when I get a full-time job, I'll be outta here !
    Until that happens, I just gotta hang on... you know, sometimes I just wish I'd be living on my own, I just can't be around my mom. She's driving me crazy! But at the same time, I'm horrified thinking I'd be all alone, only responsible for surviving bills and rent and everything... 

Otherwise everything is going smoothly, jobtraining going just fine and I just feel it in my heart that I'm graduating for a job I'll love doing. Just being with the kids, I just know I'm doing what I was meant to. Only thing that I need is a boyfriend. To someday have some babies of my own...

Life is amazing.

I had this day in Stockholm cruise with friends and OMG I had a blast ! It was just so funny and unforgettable ! I just enjoyed every hour. 
     Both of my friends bought enough from Taxfree to gain new giftcards for new cruise and I think I'm having one or two great cruises coming in later this year. If I have the money to go...

But to change the subject... Me and mum are moving out of this apartment where we live now, we had crucial disagreement with our landlord and we decided to move out. That's what you get, when your relative owns the apartment you live in. 
    We propably already have an apartment to move in, but mum's waiting an answer from another apartment before signing the lease. And now's gonna be the time that I move out on my own. I'll meet social worker during few upcoming weeks and start looking for rental apartment of my own when I have had my conversation with the social worker about this whole situation. 
     My plan is to have my own rental apartment and my own rental contract by January 2013, so that I'd spend one more christmas with my mom and then move out. Yeah! 
     In a way it's extremely exciting to think about living alone and being only responsible about everything going on but on the other hand, I've lived with my mum for six years now and it's just pretty damn scary to think that I'd be all alone so much. Ramona, our dear cat, will stay with mum, if survives this last move. She's 16, old for a cat and even as moving with us, she'll be stressed and I don't know if she makes it. But anyway, I'll be living all of my own in apartment that's all new for me in a part of Helsinki that I propably don't even know and among people that I don't know at all... scares the hell out of me in a way. Still, I just can't wait ! :D
    Now I gotta go to do some chores so that mum won't get mad when coming home in an hour... 

C U !! :D

Now it's done.

I have to admit I did get a little cold feet about leaving facebook, even after my great deal of angst against the timeline. I let myself to think that I could find nice picture about Kutless as the coverphoto... 
    But I made a compromise with myself. Instead of deleting the account, I only deactivated it, so in the future if I feel like it, I can get back in there, just by simply logging in. Do not expect me returning there anytime soon, but the possability is there, somewhere in the future.
    I may have overreacted a little about the timeline-thing altogether, but just decided to follow through with my plan, I don't regret. And as I said, I left the "backgate" open by only deactivating my account.
    Anyway, at 7:38 this morning, started my year as 22-year-old. 365 days before my next birthday. :D Gonna go to visit my dad the day after tomorrow, as to celebrate my birthday. I hope they'd (my dad and his new wife) have some money as a gift, since I'm going for a day-in-Stockholm -cruise with my two dearest friends in the beginning of June and as May is the last month I get study grant and as I have no other income before my first paycheck from my summerjob in the end of June, I really need to save up as much of the grant I just can, and try to get every possible coin saved for the trip. :)

I hate facebook

Last week I got this information above my facebook profile, that gave me two options; accept the timeline right away or wait untill 6th May, when they will change it. I immediately send angry feedback that I DO NOT want the timeline and I was very clear with my opinion about it.   

     And this morning when I opened my profile, it said "Now your timeline is live". I got furious, like immediately. I send a little bit clearer feedback about how I made it VERY clear that I DO NOT WANT the timeline and asked what was the hard part of that sentence for them to understand. I boiled a while writing that message, thought for a while and just let them know that I won't use facebook anymore, because I've had enough that THEY decide FOR ME what I want. They really think they know what I want. Well, bullshit ! You got that wrong. Tomorrow, after I get home from my jobtraining place and have read every birthdaynote on my wall, I'll delete my account. Because I hate nothing more than someone deciding for me what I want. Mostly, because they never get it right.

     So from tomorrow forward I'll be totally google-user, since my email is @gmail.com, I have my blog in google and I'll be using google+ as a social network. Hooray, google. :D I just wish google won't get as cocky as facebook and they would appreciate their individual user enough not to decide things for them.

     Just by the way, now I get more empty space into my iPod, I can remove the facebook app from it. Yay ! :D

Hello everyone ! :D

I am SSSSOOOO active when it comes to keep my blog up to date. :D

It's just that nothing happens in my life so I have nothing to write about. :I But now I have things to tell. :D So, I get in school, studying to become a practical nurse. Yay ! :D Been studying for seven months now. And as I have already graduated from High school, this study takes only about two years. :) If I've understood right, I'd be graduating in March 2013! Then I'll got a real job, pay my debt to mom and have FINALLY enough money to get my own rental apartment. Which means, I'll get out of my mom's house, I don't need to watch or listen to her if I feel like it. That'll be AMAZING!! Though, it'll be tight paying my own life by my own income but surely worth not being with mom 24/7. Don't get me wrong, I love my mom and I appreciate her and she's been wonderful, but you know when you reach certain age, you just can't live with your parents anymore. And I'm starting to feel ready for moving on my own. I just can't afford it just yet so I have to wait a while... until I graduate, get a job and have had paid my debt off. About two years, I guess. That's the time I need to hang on... :)

      But let's get to somewhere nicer. :) My good friend went to Australia. She's been there about a week now and she has eight more to go. Her dad's brother has moved to Australia long time ago and Jasmin has cousins and second cousins in the land downunder. :D It's weird to think that she's so far away...

     I had my winterbreak and it's sadly over now. Back to school tomorrow. I have rested and relaxed but I haven't done those few things I wanted to get done. Which is sad, but no can do.

Hey, there's Chris Powell in TV, which means Extreme makeover weight loss edition ! Gotta go !! :D

Hahahaha. -.-"

Wheyy... it's been a "little" while since I last wrote something.. though so much has happened.. not gonna explain it all now, would take the rest of the year to do that ! :D

Anyway. How's your life? I'm doing pretty great at the moment. Not studyin or working, but otherwise, just fine. :D
My friend is getting married 16. July and it's SSOOOOO sweet ! She's like turning 21 in November. Groom turned 22 6 May... :D They're sweet couple. :D

Gonna be there on their great day and hopefully everything goes perfectly, she deserves that. :)

Hope it's not gona take this long before next note... :DDDD